i don't have too much to say, i'll keep it short and sweet. brian's sick, i'm tired and bored, and the only thing that keeps me going is knowing there'll be much better days ahead.

well happy new year to all. i went over to andy's house and hung out with him and josh and the rest of his family, even though that wasn't the original plan. what was supposed to happen was that we were all gonna hang out with kyle, maybe find a place to go, but kyle ended up goin to EMU on his own with evan, so he never called us. we spent the rest of the nite playing catchphrase and football outside. i liked just hangin out with the guys, but we still made an oath for next year to go to toronto to celebrate there. nothin like a road trip between 3 best friends.

here's to a great new year-keep the good times going.

i went to briarwood with josh in the afternoon yesterday, still feeling a little depressed, no thanks to the somber skies and cold rain. i came back home, had dinner, then ended up going over to andy's to hang out with him, kyle, josh, and evan. we just played some texas hold em, watched tv, and went to taco bell before i called it a night. i sat in my bed and typed my other journal stuff because i had so much going through my mind, but i feel much better now, especially after talking on the phone.

we still don't know what we're doing for new year's. last night i told the guys that i would drink with them because it seemed like nothing was going right for me, but now i'm not going to. i don't think i was going to follow through on it in the first place. i'm all talk, what can i say. i can seriously say that alcohol is never going to touch my lips. i've seen it do some terrible stuff to good people, and i'd rather not be a part of that group. so to that effect, i'm wondering if i should even hang out with the guys on new years, i don't wanna feel like i'm dragging down the whole atmosphere. maybe i'll just hang out at home or something.