hung out with kyle tonight and just watched the pistons game and midgets get assaulted. josh didn't feel like coming out since he had a lot of blood taken, so that was understandable. i feel bad for him. and i guess andy and kyle were hanging out before i came, but andy had to go home for one reason or another. oh well, hopefully we can all hang out tomorrow night, possibly after my parents' anniversary dinner. those three guys are the only people i can truly have fun with.

and now i'm working on these stupid online physics questions. there's always one that i manage to take down to the wire with all but one of my tries, and i hate it. it's so stressful. tomorrow i'm gettin my haircut and studyin the rest of the afternoon, but hopefully the evening will be better.

another late night, just more stupid thoughts. i only have math tomorrow morning, and then i'm going home for the weekend. can't wait to get out of here because it seems that every day is just worse than the one before it (yeah, that's from office space). it just seems that no one here, with the exception of josh of course, seems to care for me, which kind of bothers me, seeing as how i keep a lot of people in my thoughts and always talk to them. I've come to conclusion that it is almost damn near impossible for me to be the slightest bit rude to someone. it's just not in me. sometimes i wish i could just tell someone off, but then my conscience kicks in and starts thinking about how they might feel, and i hate that. why can't i just act without thinking of the repercussions? God, i hate it. have a good weekend.

i read this and thought, what a creative way to float 90 miles.CNN.com - Cubans try floating vintage car to Florida - Feb. 4, 2004

sometimes i wonder if i go too far out of my way to make people happy. I im'ed michelle to wish her luck on her chem exam yesterday, but she never im'ed me back to say thanks. Now, she could've been busy, and i understand that, but not even an im to say thanks? whatever, it's no big deal i guess.

that isn't the only example, i mean, most times i'm the one to im people outside of my close circle to see how they're doing, if they wanna grab something to eat, or just to hang out. Screw it, i give up. If i'm talked to, i'll be nice, but i'm not gonna go out of my way anymore to do stuff for people. It's ridiculous. It's not like i do it for recognition or anywhere, but sometimes it feels good to be talked to. i'm done. good nite.

the superbowl didn't feel the same this year. maybe it's because i watched it by myself, i don't know. After spending most of the weekend hanging out with Josh, it felt kind of awkward( not awkward, i can't figure out a word to explain it) to go back there a third time in 3 days, so i just hung out in my room and ate my pizza. kind of depressing, yeah, but there'll be better days i guess.

i spent a little more time studying physics after the game, so i'll be prepared for that stupid stupid test on tuesday. alright well i'm gonna go read a bit then call it a nite. later.

sittin at josh's, just watchin mr. deeds, our "fall asleep" movie. i always manage to fall asleep to this movie whenever it's really late, regardless of whether i'm tired or not.

i studied for a lot of this afternoon, mostly just physics, gettin ready for tuesday's test. i'm feeling a lot better about it, especially after studying.

andy called josh earlier today and asked if the both of us were interested in going to windsor with him and mark for his birthday. of course we were interested, so all i'm waiting on is my ridiculously overprotective parents to give me the ok. it's not like i'm going to go drink- we're just going to hang out, enjoy windsor as any other 19 year olds would. Mark's a good guy too, one of the better stepdads i've met. He's really nice and is always looking out for all of us. it should be a good time. can't wait til february 13th.